I am the creative power in my world. I express myself creatively as much as possible.
This is where I miss being hypomanic. When I am in periods of hypomania I am super creative. I paint, I draw, I write a lot, I make creative food dishes. I am missing this with the medication haze as I haven’t felt like doing anything creative in the past few days. I have even struggled to keep up this blog with a lot of very short posts.
It’s weird to miss part of your illness but I do. I know the medication helps me and I know I have to keep taking it to stay well but I wish it didn’t dampen down some good aspects of my life too. I want to find a way to live a balanced life where I can be creative but also stable in my mood.